I can't believe its 2010 and I'm also already having a hard time. But not in BK this time. Damn, what a way to start.

First week of school is ending soon. Happy, excited, awesome, sad, frustrated. Name it, I have them all. It was just mixed feelings. All I ever wanted was a great and peaceful beginning though I know there will be something thats getting in the way. I feel its coming, I see its coming. Pretty obvious though but I did tried to be normal, act normal by all means. Judging from my words and actions, these are the two different things that I can never match them cause my actions always speaks louder than words and I was not aware of this. Maybe I was overreacting that make the others do it too.

Being ignorant was not even part of my list on how I should be reacting. I was just doing my part, shunning myself from those kind of people that would destroy my life rather than building it up. I keep holding back all of it and trying to make no one feeling guilty. But it was just too much too handle and I guessed that the words coming out from me were a little to harsh but it was not even my intention in the first place. Cause I was pissed. Too pissed for those words I heard repeatedly on my mind that I simply could not grab hold on to anything else and broke down to someone I barely know. I'm sorry, I know I shouldn't have done it.

Somewhat, I did not blame anyone for this, not even a single soul because these are all my reactions, my mistakes and my foolishness. I'm not bragging about this but I just wanted to apologize for those actions or words that might give the wrong idea. Cause I'm sick and tired of this. I want to get it done and over with. Gonna do it. Gotta do it.

I can't believe its 2010 and I'm also already having a hard time. But not in BK this time. Damn, what a way to start.

First week of school is ending soon. Happy, excited, awesome, sad, frustrated. Name it, I have them all. It was just mixed feelings. All I ever wanted was a great and peaceful beginning though I know there will be something thats getting in the way. I feel its coming, I see its coming. Pretty obvious though but I did tried to be normal, act normal by all means. Judging from my words and actions, these are the two different things that I can never match them cause my actions always speaks louder than words and I was not aware of this. Maybe I was overreacting that make the others do it too.

Being ignorant was not even part of my list on how I should be reacting. I was just doing my part, shunning myself from those kind of people that would destroy my life rather than building it up. I keep holding back all of it and trying to make no one feeling guilty. But it was just too much too handle and I guessed that the words coming out from me were a little to harsh but it was not even my intention in the first place. Cause I was pissed. Too pissed for those words I heard repeatedly on my mind that I simply could not grab hold on to anything else and broke down to someone I barely know. I'm sorry, I know I shouldn't have done it.

Somewhat, I did not blame anyone for this, not even a single soul because these are all my reactions, my mistakes and my foolishness. I'm not bragging about this but I just wanted to apologize for those actions or words that might give the wrong idea. Cause I'm sick and tired of this. I want to get it done and over with. Gonna do it. Gotta do it.