I'm seriously exhausted. Deprived from good hours of sleep and rest. Promised myself to sleep early but nothing works even though I lay on bed, shutting my eyes for hours and hours. The least I could do was stared into the ceiling with some thoughts running wild, haunting me. Half of my time was spent just by thinking of random things thats ought to be on my mind. It kept me wondering and pondering so hard that I wish I could switch it off though some diversions and distractions, did help a little. Hopelessly hoping for a hope. Insane I know.

A few missed calls and messages. And guess what? I was still sleeping soundly, in my dreamy world. Sis even tried to irritate me so that I could open my eyes. But I couldn't be bothered and thats when cousin came to my house just to wake me up. By that time it was 2 in the afternoon. Dragged my feet and accompanied her out to buy her stationaries. All the way, from house to Lot 1 and back home, I couldn't stop yawning until I lie on the bed. Yawning stops. Sheesh. This totally sucks.

Be meeting my laughing pills tomorrow. Let's hope I'll fall asleep as soon as possible. Those pills might keep me awake by then. Heh. Can't wait! Goodnight! :D

Even when the dust settles, I will still fall the same, like how I do now :)

Brother bought this F21 dress for his future gf (i guess) and asked me to try it on to see if it fits me, which means it fits her too. And OMG ITS SO CUTEEE CAUSE IT FITS ME AND I FEEL LIKE HUGGING MYSELF AND WEARING IT TO SLEEP. Yumyum. I've been staring at it for the past few hours after trying. But whatever, even if its mine, you people will hardly see me wearing dresses. So dream on. Sometimes I wonder if Im a girl. This is so crap and cute. Ha ha ha.

It was a lovely day out with my lovely girls even though it rained just now. Sadly, Wawa's not able to make it there. No plan B and we were running all over the place, like some lost girls, trying our best to find a nice place and atmosphere. And eventually, I'm lucky enough, the rain stopped and we moved our butts to the place that I really really wanted to go so badly. Awww. It was all laughters, talks, mat, foods, long walks, swans, trees, grass, ball, huts, pics and everything I need. I did have fun. Can I have more of that, that, that and that? Heh :)

It's not how I wanted to become but the past made me into what I am now. December is coming to an end. Its gonna be the end of 2009. Its going to be new year soon. I wasn't sure enough of what I did to make myself proud but one thing for sure is I know I did spent quality time with people around. And I want more of that with those closer to me even though I don't really show it. Maybe I'm not matured or even brave enough to have overcome all those courage but I know one day I have and will be more confident rather than lying low and watch others. Such a timid little girl, was never brave enough to fight for my rights, never brave enough to tell people off. I was a fool. Even now, I am still a fool. This have to stop. Its gotta change, slowly. It takes times.

Good thing I reached home early because grandparents came to my house for awhile. Yayness! I could feel my body being squeezed so tightly by their hugs! Heh heh. Its been months since I saw them and now they are heading back to Malaysia. Sad. I remember those times when we were small and young. The moment our grandparents came knocking at the door, we'll be the ones who get excited and be running to the door, waiting for them to carry us. I miss thattt and for sure, I miss them. Awww. Heh.

Anyway, its Eve of Christmas. No, I don't celebrate Christmas but I happened to receive a pressie from SSA. A big one and a heavy one. *HUGGIES* Didn't expect it from her though but I'll just 'be bless and not grumble' (or mumble like her). Oops! Heh. That I will always remember. For farmvillers, ITS TIME TO OPEN UR PRESENTS! Its 24th of December! :D

And guess what we did just now? We did paint art! Heee! Is it called paint art? Idk. Nevermind, but anyway I never did that before until today. Awww, I feel like a kid again, sitting among them and coloring the alphabet. The process of making it is like so coool. Heh.

Locked myself, plugged in my earpiece, tuck in my knees closer to myself (not literally close, but like a prawn maybe? heh) and shut my eyes. I'm guessing that my old and ugly habit has just started taking place, slowly and peacefully. It was never a good start and I swear it will never be. Who knows when will it end. Damn, I am so hating this. All I need for now is energy booster.

I am so done and dusted with attachment. Was graded the same as the previous one. Tsktsk. Holidays are here but it doesn't feel like one. Aqilah's back from Aussie and she bought loads and loads of stuffs. When I say loads and loads it really mean loads and loads. Heh. I did try my best to stuff everything in my hot pink bag. Thanks alot alot alot gilahh! :D

Pretty upset with this attachment. It isn't as good as the previous one. Have to get it over as soon as possible. 5 more days and I'm done and dusted. :(

Meet ups with the girls and I had to get myself out of bed rather than sleeping the whole day. Sleeping is nice but too much of it is not good. I think? Heh. K skip. Tomorrow is Ika's 8th monthsary and I always remember/know/notice it for some reason. I'm great I know. So, she baked cookie for her syg/honey/darling or whatever she call it. (and not forgetting us too!) :D


Too bad I wasn't there the whole time cause I keep going in and out and back and forth to Lot 1 to Ika's house and to my house and to Ika's and to Lot 1 and to my house and to Ika's and now back home safe and sound. I'm not crazy but I had to do something. And because of that I didn't get to see how she made the alphabet cookies which turns out to be fat, cute and round.


Tomorrow, will be meeting Winnie :D She'll be around bp and I can bet she's gonna get lost and hail a cab for every minute she get out from her auntie's house there for 9 days(?) Lolingzxc. So I'll see you in a bit yaaa. And now I need my sleep. Goodniteee :D

I'm seriously exhausted. Deprived from good hours of sleep and rest. Promised myself to sleep early but nothing works even though I lay on bed, shutting my eyes for hours and hours. The least I could do was stared into the ceiling with some thoughts running wild, haunting me. Half of my time was spent just by thinking of random things thats ought to be on my mind. It kept me wondering and pondering so hard that I wish I could switch it off though some diversions and distractions, did help a little. Hopelessly hoping for a hope. Insane I know.

A few missed calls and messages. And guess what? I was still sleeping soundly, in my dreamy world. Sis even tried to irritate me so that I could open my eyes. But I couldn't be bothered and thats when cousin came to my house just to wake me up. By that time it was 2 in the afternoon. Dragged my feet and accompanied her out to buy her stationaries. All the way, from house to Lot 1 and back home, I couldn't stop yawning until I lie on the bed. Yawning stops. Sheesh. This totally sucks.

Be meeting my laughing pills tomorrow. Let's hope I'll fall asleep as soon as possible. Those pills might keep me awake by then. Heh. Can't wait! Goodnight! :D

Even when the dust settles, I will still fall the same, like how I do now :)

Brother bought this F21 dress for his future gf (i guess) and asked me to try it on to see if it fits me, which means it fits her too. And OMG ITS SO CUTEEE CAUSE IT FITS ME AND I FEEL LIKE HUGGING MYSELF AND WEARING IT TO SLEEP. Yumyum. I've been staring at it for the past few hours after trying. But whatever, even if its mine, you people will hardly see me wearing dresses. So dream on. Sometimes I wonder if Im a girl. This is so crap and cute. Ha ha ha.

It was a lovely day out with my lovely girls even though it rained just now. Sadly, Wawa's not able to make it there. No plan B and we were running all over the place, like some lost girls, trying our best to find a nice place and atmosphere. And eventually, I'm lucky enough, the rain stopped and we moved our butts to the place that I really really wanted to go so badly. Awww. It was all laughters, talks, mat, foods, long walks, swans, trees, grass, ball, huts, pics and everything I need. I did have fun. Can I have more of that, that, that and that? Heh :)

It's not how I wanted to become but the past made me into what I am now. December is coming to an end. Its gonna be the end of 2009. Its going to be new year soon. I wasn't sure enough of what I did to make myself proud but one thing for sure is I know I did spent quality time with people around. And I want more of that with those closer to me even though I don't really show it. Maybe I'm not matured or even brave enough to have overcome all those courage but I know one day I have and will be more confident rather than lying low and watch others. Such a timid little girl, was never brave enough to fight for my rights, never brave enough to tell people off. I was a fool. Even now, I am still a fool. This have to stop. Its gotta change, slowly. It takes times.

Good thing I reached home early because grandparents came to my house for awhile. Yayness! I could feel my body being squeezed so tightly by their hugs! Heh heh. Its been months since I saw them and now they are heading back to Malaysia. Sad. I remember those times when we were small and young. The moment our grandparents came knocking at the door, we'll be the ones who get excited and be running to the door, waiting for them to carry us. I miss thattt and for sure, I miss them. Awww. Heh.

Anyway, its Eve of Christmas. No, I don't celebrate Christmas but I happened to receive a pressie from SSA. A big one and a heavy one. *HUGGIES* Didn't expect it from her though but I'll just 'be bless and not grumble' (or mumble like her). Oops! Heh. That I will always remember. For farmvillers, ITS TIME TO OPEN UR PRESENTS! Its 24th of December! :D

And guess what we did just now? We did paint art! Heee! Is it called paint art? Idk. Nevermind, but anyway I never did that before until today. Awww, I feel like a kid again, sitting among them and coloring the alphabet. The process of making it is like so coool. Heh.

Locked myself, plugged in my earpiece, tuck in my knees closer to myself (not literally close, but like a prawn maybe? heh) and shut my eyes. I'm guessing that my old and ugly habit has just started taking place, slowly and peacefully. It was never a good start and I swear it will never be. Who knows when will it end. Damn, I am so hating this. All I need for now is energy booster.

I am so done and dusted with attachment. Was graded the same as the previous one. Tsktsk. Holidays are here but it doesn't feel like one. Aqilah's back from Aussie and she bought loads and loads of stuffs. When I say loads and loads it really mean loads and loads. Heh. I did try my best to stuff everything in my hot pink bag. Thanks alot alot alot gilahh! :D

Pretty upset with this attachment. It isn't as good as the previous one. Have to get it over as soon as possible. 5 more days and I'm done and dusted. :(

Meet ups with the girls and I had to get myself out of bed rather than sleeping the whole day. Sleeping is nice but too much of it is not good. I think? Heh. K skip. Tomorrow is Ika's 8th monthsary and I always remember/know/notice it for some reason. I'm great I know. So, she baked cookie for her syg/honey/darling or whatever she call it. (and not forgetting us too!) :D


Too bad I wasn't there the whole time cause I keep going in and out and back and forth to Lot 1 to Ika's house and to my house and to Ika's and to Lot 1 and to my house and to Ika's and now back home safe and sound. I'm not crazy but I had to do something. And because of that I didn't get to see how she made the alphabet cookies which turns out to be fat, cute and round.


Tomorrow, will be meeting Winnie :D She'll be around bp and I can bet she's gonna get lost and hail a cab for every minute she get out from her auntie's house there for 9 days(?) Lolingzxc. So I'll see you in a bit yaaa. And now I need my sleep. Goodniteee :D