Time was too quick to be depended on. It happened too fast and too furious, yet, I was not prepare of the outcome at all. AT ALL. Didn't expect anything like this to happen. Sad and shocked, I know I must and I have to finally accept the fact that what is left will only remain as memories. Nothing more, nothing less.

For that half a year which I got to be close with him, everything seemed so fine and happy, with a smile appeared. The jokes, the wanderings inside the house searching for food in the middle of the night, those callings, topup of ezlinks, creating quite a number of internet accounts and all those other little-little things were all noticeable even though I did not show up right in front. It was a lovable and warming kind of feeling to be looking at those funny things done around me although some times his emotions changed into some thing which we did not want it to be. When he is kind, everything seemed so calm. When he is angry, we will watch him silently until he pacifies himself. Still, the reason he did that was just to show off. The last time we met was a week ago and as usual, smiling and disturbing those around. Even though it did not last for so long, at the very least, I managed to be around him. However, right here, right now, things are different. I know this will never happen anymore. It has come to an end. I'm terribly sad. I can't sleep. No words can describe the feelings I'm having now.

Sigh. I miss my cousin. I love my cousin.

Just finished tuition and I feel so tired but I can't sleep! Mmmhhmmmm... Just before that Ika came to my house around 12 yesterday to watch Final Destination 4 and Bring It On. Time flies really very fast.

I want to watch Final Destination 3D in the cinema but its M18. -.- Very funny she laughed while watching the show. Gross Ika, gross. Urghh. After watching FD4, I watched Bring It On while Ika lie on the bed, almost asleep, after eating.


As soon as it reached the climax, Ika woke up and had to go home to sahur. Haiyoooo. I didn't get to watch it until the end :( Ika, I need/want the CD. Thanks!

Hari Raya is around the corner but I don't have the mood to celebrate it. I have this feeling that it will not be as great as compared to the previous years. Whatever it is, attachment is another thing, but I'm not talking about attachment here. A few more days to Hari Raya, some things are somehow still not done. Nevermind, I just need to get myself ready for it. (:

Ok, I'm breaking my fast soon. Need to help my mum! Toodles!

/edit

Time check 4am in the morning. I am still very awake. But my body is really weak. I don't have enough sleep. My eye bag is growing bigger and bigger. What the hell am I doing here typing? Been stoning for awhile just now. Something is wrong with me. I will/must sleep right after sahur/eating breakfast. Sing me a lullaby and I will sleep, definitely. Will you?

Have you decide how long will it take?

I change the song. I change the background. I change the colour. Can't seem to find anything to do cause I almost did what I'm suppose to do. I think?

In the morning, followed mum and dad to geylang. Actually, was suppose to accompany someone to Tampines but I canceled it. I'm suppose to have tuition but I postpone it to weekdays. What am I doing? Never mind.

Ummmm.. Lately, I've been thinking a lot, after all this while, I realised that there is one thing I have not done. To the person that I once get caught up with. The person who had changed my life to a certain point. The person who made me smile and cried to the fullest. The person who made me see things through. The person who knocked some sense into me for what I had become now. And also the person who made me become who I am now. All I've been wanting to say is a big thank you for being there for me during the times I need so badly. I am not sure if I should write all this but I know today is a special day for you. Its the day when a person turns a year older. This is just a little something for you. I just want to wish you Happy Birthday, Hakim. I am pretty sure you are doing well right now. Soooo.. have a nice day ahead, have fun and goodnight :)

I shine so bright when you're around.

I know. My blog still look the same. The colour, the boxes. Except there is the colourful line between the navigation and my profile. Okay, I was bored bored bored. Very bored. -.-

Hmm. Where should I start?

Basically I was at home sitting in front of the computer when my mum asked me to buy some stuffs for her. Not once, she keep asking me to go buy this and that and all this while I've been going in and out from the house to buy those stuffs. Funny thing, I didn't complain like I usually do. I was just bored. That's why.

Why is 'bored' a word? Bored!

The girls are very busy this two weeks. Wawa's plan was canceled and will be canceled again. I guess? Tomorrow's tuition is canceled. Nasyita's going out with her family. Wajihah having attachment till 9. Dee's accompanying me to suntec for awhile. Ika's going out with idk who. Winnie's going back Malaysia tomorrow. Very busy yeah?

My attachment is in one week time. I am scared of hospital. Did I ever mention that? How many times did I say bored in this post? Until the day I have attachment, I won't use the word 'bored' so often. Heh heh.

And ika, gi mkn potato chips. Jgn byk bising ok?

Not long after breaking fast, I had a random call from Ika saying that she wants to go geylang. -.- I wasn't doing anything so I agreed to accompany her. As soon as we reached interchange, she said she just wants to watch movie at Lot 1. Yeah, that's Ika anyway. Heh heh.

I'm not sure of whats going on between us. Neither do you. I realized that we have not been talking and laughing and telling each other about whats going on around us. It was kind of unexpected? I was actually sad when the topic suddenly came out of nowhere. Having new friends and all, I guess I've been neglecting you all along. I have and need to stop being self centered. I'm sorry Nasyita. We should go out one day. I love you. :D

Anyway, happy 2 years anniversary to both Nadiah and Fahrain, and Nasyita and Hafiz. Good luck to both couples for the upcoming years. I know its abit late, but I did wish. :P

Cheers is 24hrs open. Heh I didn't know that :P And ya, thanks Ika for the pic. Whatever bleah~


Suppose to go out with Shab and Syahz but it was a last minute cancel due to some purposes. I miss them. It is very hard to meet them. Even though one of them live so near and the other one obviously because she lives at the other end of Singapore. -.- Never mind, I'll meet them next time.

My cousin, together with my cute little niece, came today just to help my mum with the furniture and all while I did spring cleaning for my room. It was a hectic day. After moving the stuffs here and there, my room looked quite big actually. Changed the bed sheets, curtains and once I finish painting the walls, my room will definitely feel so pink. I mean not everything is pink, there are also other colour too. But actually most of it is pink. :D


Anyway, its Firdaus birthday today but we celebrated it yesterday. Though the celebration was nothing much, just movie and foods, and we had nothing for him, I hope he enjoyed his 18th birthday celebration.



Since I'm not doing anything, I'm going to watch my movie/drama now. Hehehe. Tata.

It feels weird, doesn't it? I saw you. I know I saw you. How can someone smile and pretend nothing happen in the first place and then avoid again like they used to. I don't get you. Really. I'm not sure if you still read my blog. Because the person I know will not do it after something went wrong as if its a sin if they do it. Till now, I still don't understand how and why it become like this. I'm at my weakest point right now.

Haha, amazing how Dee love the videos.

Today was awesome. I did not sleep the whole of yesterday night cause I was watching Full House again until 7 in the morning and I went to sleep. Woke up, I only had a few minutes before I break fast. Heh heh. I had nothing to do with my holidays. Its fasting month anyway, what do you expect?

I planned. We planned. Planned for tomorrow. Planning for tomorrow had me going really crazy. I have no idea that guys are also fickle minded. -.-

I think I will be in need of money very very soon. Primary schools exams are around the corner, especially PSLE which falls during the first two weeks of October. This means that I will not be having any tuition which also means that I have no money. -.- I know its Hari Raya but I will be having my attachment. I will not be at home most of the time being with my relatives and all. Whatever it is, I really need a job soon. :(

This may be the second post for today. Heheh but watch this video. Its so funny!

Wooo~ Like finally I know how to use my PDA. But its a bit troublesome because the fonts are like so damn tiny and my fingers can't even press the correct button. But never mind, I know I will get used to it soon.

Anyways, I'm kind of addicted to FACEBOOK NOTES! I love doing it cause it actually make me happy. Heh heh. That's what I do most of the time at night. Boredzxzxzz. It's 2plus going 3? I didn't realize its morning/night/morning-night already and my brain is not functioning well. Okay, I know its never functioning properly. -.-

So here's yesterday picture. Didn't get to buy anything cause I have no idea what to buy for myself. Heh.

Oh my god, I'm losing my voice in no time. What did I do? I think I sound so manly. I can't talk properly. I can't scream and shout like how I used to. And I keep coughing non stop. Grrr. I'm sick. Woke up around 10plus and found that nobody was at home. Had nothing to do so I went back to sleep. I love the weather right now. So windy and full of breeze. I remembered I did not wake up for sahur. I was too tired sleeping late yesterday watching Full House again. -.-

Umm, I'll be going out later with the girls, maybe? Dee's not confirm, Wawa having attachment until 5, Ika and Nasyita is very free. We'll see how. Okay, and I just received a text from Ika. Need to accompany her to her school around 2 later to hand in her mc? That will be in an hour time and I have yet to bathe. Can it rain now? So that I can bathe myself in the rain, lol.

Anyway, Winnie is coming home today! Hehehehe.

I have three weeks of holidays before my attachmentszxzxzx! Kill me. I am so bored. I am so bored, bored, bored, bored, bored, bored right now. Blogger is giving me problems. Grrrr. Stupid blogger.

I miss school celebrations; be it participating in school events or taking videos of them participating. I remembered the first time when I had to stand on stage together with the whole class singing I cannot remember which country song and I had the first picture of us, with me standing in the front row with my rabbit teeth and my friends all at the last row. That was an embarrassment because it was the first thing my friends noticed and it happened to be uploaded on West Spring blog. Heh heh.

Anyway, its teacher's day today, HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY! Yesterday is the day schools celebrated it. I did not go for the celebration. Even if I went for it, it will be of no use and also I heard that BYD was canceled which means the celebration was not that great. I notice that West Spring changed a lot ever since the change of our principal and it will not be as fun as my secondary one days. Okay whatever like West Spring is always West Spring. -.-

Might be going out tomorrow. I'm always looking forward to the next day everyday but somehow it looks like everyday is never better. It gets duller and duller. Is there such a word? Hehehe.



I'm glad that I'm still strong though deep down, it hurts so bad.

Time was too quick to be depended on. It happened too fast and too furious, yet, I was not prepare of the outcome at all. AT ALL. Didn't expect anything like this to happen. Sad and shocked, I know I must and I have to finally accept the fact that what is left will only remain as memories. Nothing more, nothing less.

For that half a year which I got to be close with him, everything seemed so fine and happy, with a smile appeared. The jokes, the wanderings inside the house searching for food in the middle of the night, those callings, topup of ezlinks, creating quite a number of internet accounts and all those other little-little things were all noticeable even though I did not show up right in front. It was a lovable and warming kind of feeling to be looking at those funny things done around me although some times his emotions changed into some thing which we did not want it to be. When he is kind, everything seemed so calm. When he is angry, we will watch him silently until he pacifies himself. Still, the reason he did that was just to show off. The last time we met was a week ago and as usual, smiling and disturbing those around. Even though it did not last for so long, at the very least, I managed to be around him. However, right here, right now, things are different. I know this will never happen anymore. It has come to an end. I'm terribly sad. I can't sleep. No words can describe the feelings I'm having now.

Sigh. I miss my cousin. I love my cousin.

Just finished tuition and I feel so tired but I can't sleep! Mmmhhmmmm... Just before that Ika came to my house around 12 yesterday to watch Final Destination 4 and Bring It On. Time flies really very fast.

I want to watch Final Destination 3D in the cinema but its M18. -.- Very funny she laughed while watching the show. Gross Ika, gross. Urghh. After watching FD4, I watched Bring It On while Ika lie on the bed, almost asleep, after eating.


As soon as it reached the climax, Ika woke up and had to go home to sahur. Haiyoooo. I didn't get to watch it until the end :( Ika, I need/want the CD. Thanks!

Hari Raya is around the corner but I don't have the mood to celebrate it. I have this feeling that it will not be as great as compared to the previous years. Whatever it is, attachment is another thing, but I'm not talking about attachment here. A few more days to Hari Raya, some things are somehow still not done. Nevermind, I just need to get myself ready for it. (:

Ok, I'm breaking my fast soon. Need to help my mum! Toodles!

/edit

Time check 4am in the morning. I am still very awake. But my body is really weak. I don't have enough sleep. My eye bag is growing bigger and bigger. What the hell am I doing here typing? Been stoning for awhile just now. Something is wrong with me. I will/must sleep right after sahur/eating breakfast. Sing me a lullaby and I will sleep, definitely. Will you?

Have you decide how long will it take?

I change the song. I change the background. I change the colour. Can't seem to find anything to do cause I almost did what I'm suppose to do. I think?

In the morning, followed mum and dad to geylang. Actually, was suppose to accompany someone to Tampines but I canceled it. I'm suppose to have tuition but I postpone it to weekdays. What am I doing? Never mind.

Ummmm.. Lately, I've been thinking a lot, after all this while, I realised that there is one thing I have not done. To the person that I once get caught up with. The person who had changed my life to a certain point. The person who made me smile and cried to the fullest. The person who made me see things through. The person who knocked some sense into me for what I had become now. And also the person who made me become who I am now. All I've been wanting to say is a big thank you for being there for me during the times I need so badly. I am not sure if I should write all this but I know today is a special day for you. Its the day when a person turns a year older. This is just a little something for you. I just want to wish you Happy Birthday, Hakim. I am pretty sure you are doing well right now. Soooo.. have a nice day ahead, have fun and goodnight :)

I shine so bright when you're around.

I know. My blog still look the same. The colour, the boxes. Except there is the colourful line between the navigation and my profile. Okay, I was bored bored bored. Very bored. -.-

Hmm. Where should I start?

Basically I was at home sitting in front of the computer when my mum asked me to buy some stuffs for her. Not once, she keep asking me to go buy this and that and all this while I've been going in and out from the house to buy those stuffs. Funny thing, I didn't complain like I usually do. I was just bored. That's why.

Why is 'bored' a word? Bored!

The girls are very busy this two weeks. Wawa's plan was canceled and will be canceled again. I guess? Tomorrow's tuition is canceled. Nasyita's going out with her family. Wajihah having attachment till 9. Dee's accompanying me to suntec for awhile. Ika's going out with idk who. Winnie's going back Malaysia tomorrow. Very busy yeah?

My attachment is in one week time. I am scared of hospital. Did I ever mention that? How many times did I say bored in this post? Until the day I have attachment, I won't use the word 'bored' so often. Heh heh.

And ika, gi mkn potato chips. Jgn byk bising ok?

Not long after breaking fast, I had a random call from Ika saying that she wants to go geylang. -.- I wasn't doing anything so I agreed to accompany her. As soon as we reached interchange, she said she just wants to watch movie at Lot 1. Yeah, that's Ika anyway. Heh heh.

I'm not sure of whats going on between us. Neither do you. I realized that we have not been talking and laughing and telling each other about whats going on around us. It was kind of unexpected? I was actually sad when the topic suddenly came out of nowhere. Having new friends and all, I guess I've been neglecting you all along. I have and need to stop being self centered. I'm sorry Nasyita. We should go out one day. I love you. :D

Anyway, happy 2 years anniversary to both Nadiah and Fahrain, and Nasyita and Hafiz. Good luck to both couples for the upcoming years. I know its abit late, but I did wish. :P

Cheers is 24hrs open. Heh I didn't know that :P And ya, thanks Ika for the pic. Whatever bleah~


Suppose to go out with Shab and Syahz but it was a last minute cancel due to some purposes. I miss them. It is very hard to meet them. Even though one of them live so near and the other one obviously because she lives at the other end of Singapore. -.- Never mind, I'll meet them next time.

My cousin, together with my cute little niece, came today just to help my mum with the furniture and all while I did spring cleaning for my room. It was a hectic day. After moving the stuffs here and there, my room looked quite big actually. Changed the bed sheets, curtains and once I finish painting the walls, my room will definitely feel so pink. I mean not everything is pink, there are also other colour too. But actually most of it is pink. :D


Anyway, its Firdaus birthday today but we celebrated it yesterday. Though the celebration was nothing much, just movie and foods, and we had nothing for him, I hope he enjoyed his 18th birthday celebration.



Since I'm not doing anything, I'm going to watch my movie/drama now. Hehehe. Tata.

It feels weird, doesn't it? I saw you. I know I saw you. How can someone smile and pretend nothing happen in the first place and then avoid again like they used to. I don't get you. Really. I'm not sure if you still read my blog. Because the person I know will not do it after something went wrong as if its a sin if they do it. Till now, I still don't understand how and why it become like this. I'm at my weakest point right now.

Haha, amazing how Dee love the videos.

Today was awesome. I did not sleep the whole of yesterday night cause I was watching Full House again until 7 in the morning and I went to sleep. Woke up, I only had a few minutes before I break fast. Heh heh. I had nothing to do with my holidays. Its fasting month anyway, what do you expect?

I planned. We planned. Planned for tomorrow. Planning for tomorrow had me going really crazy. I have no idea that guys are also fickle minded. -.-

I think I will be in need of money very very soon. Primary schools exams are around the corner, especially PSLE which falls during the first two weeks of October. This means that I will not be having any tuition which also means that I have no money. -.- I know its Hari Raya but I will be having my attachment. I will not be at home most of the time being with my relatives and all. Whatever it is, I really need a job soon. :(

This may be the second post for today. Heheh but watch this video. Its so funny!

Wooo~ Like finally I know how to use my PDA. But its a bit troublesome because the fonts are like so damn tiny and my fingers can't even press the correct button. But never mind, I know I will get used to it soon.

Anyways, I'm kind of addicted to FACEBOOK NOTES! I love doing it cause it actually make me happy. Heh heh. That's what I do most of the time at night. Boredzxzxzz. It's 2plus going 3? I didn't realize its morning/night/morning-night already and my brain is not functioning well. Okay, I know its never functioning properly. -.-

So here's yesterday picture. Didn't get to buy anything cause I have no idea what to buy for myself. Heh.

Oh my god, I'm losing my voice in no time. What did I do? I think I sound so manly. I can't talk properly. I can't scream and shout like how I used to. And I keep coughing non stop. Grrr. I'm sick. Woke up around 10plus and found that nobody was at home. Had nothing to do so I went back to sleep. I love the weather right now. So windy and full of breeze. I remembered I did not wake up for sahur. I was too tired sleeping late yesterday watching Full House again. -.-

Umm, I'll be going out later with the girls, maybe? Dee's not confirm, Wawa having attachment until 5, Ika and Nasyita is very free. We'll see how. Okay, and I just received a text from Ika. Need to accompany her to her school around 2 later to hand in her mc? That will be in an hour time and I have yet to bathe. Can it rain now? So that I can bathe myself in the rain, lol.

Anyway, Winnie is coming home today! Hehehehe.

I have three weeks of holidays before my attachmentszxzxzx! Kill me. I am so bored. I am so bored, bored, bored, bored, bored, bored right now. Blogger is giving me problems. Grrrr. Stupid blogger.

I miss school celebrations; be it participating in school events or taking videos of them participating. I remembered the first time when I had to stand on stage together with the whole class singing I cannot remember which country song and I had the first picture of us, with me standing in the front row with my rabbit teeth and my friends all at the last row. That was an embarrassment because it was the first thing my friends noticed and it happened to be uploaded on West Spring blog. Heh heh.

Anyway, its teacher's day today, HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY! Yesterday is the day schools celebrated it. I did not go for the celebration. Even if I went for it, it will be of no use and also I heard that BYD was canceled which means the celebration was not that great. I notice that West Spring changed a lot ever since the change of our principal and it will not be as fun as my secondary one days. Okay whatever like West Spring is always West Spring. -.-

Might be going out tomorrow. I'm always looking forward to the next day everyday but somehow it looks like everyday is never better. It gets duller and duller. Is there such a word? Hehehe.



I'm glad that I'm still strong though deep down, it hurts so bad.