I'm losing track of time. I feel so lost. I don't know which is the right path and what is the right thing to do. There's got to be way. Give me your directions and I'll follow. I'm just one of the thousand girls who have the same reaction. Can I just leave? Searching and finding a way out of this mess.

If its a good thing that I'm happy and the way people are treating me is like statue, I would rather walk away. Everyone has feelings and please this is not the way they want to be feel. You have a mouth to talk and say that advices are simply nonsense. From there I shall just keep everything to myself and let everything go with the flow. I mean here I am as friend, you simply switch me off and turn around to find a new one. I tried not to keep everything in the dark. And if you really want to know whats the real truth, just make sure you have the feeling of being remorse before asking. I may be smiling when I'm out there. The real fact is that I've been wanting to tell it to you. To think back I guess I have no rights to tell you. But I'm still a friend.

Confused and annoyed about everything. Truth are all over me. Can anyone just tell me what's next?

Yay I'm back for good but too bad he's away for now. That is saddd. But FOC Camp makes me hyper and Izzat makes me crazy. And that makes me hyper crazy. Hahahaha.

Hawk Horus is still the best! With the group leader, Qaiser the hardgay, Farhan scared of cockroaches and Jia Jia who loves saying toooot, and also the freshies, how I love my group. AWWW. And those 4 days 3 nights wasn't that bad after all. Hardgay! SAY SAY SAY! 1 frog! Jump! BOING! HEEHS.

Surprisingly, you knew the things I did.

Like finally, I'm done with packing camp stuffs. Ok, not really finish yet but I'm just left with a few pieces of clothes which are still inside the washing machine and then into the dryer. It's not gonna take forever. Will be done in half an hour. Then, I'm ready for camp. This is so exciting. 4 days, 24th March to 27th March. And I'll be back soooonnnn!

Good luck for the retake. I might not be able to sms ________ but I'll try (:

It's been 12hrs and I've been so happy and hyper. Obviously, this shows that I have something to tell GFS. I'll keep it a hush. I'll tell you girls tomorrow. Hehe.

NASYITA. 20 March. Not forgetting my idiotic tweenie who loves criticising people the whole of yesterday at Mac and always burning a hole in my pocket. It's her birthaday and so here's a wish for you, Happy 17th Birthday Babe! You're turning a year younger. Look how young you are. HAHA.

For four years, having a friend like you is like hell and heaven. With all the ups and downs, we managed to go through them all well. Thanks for being such a bestie that I never had before. Just so you know, if there's anything you need, I'm always there for you. But you will have to keep smiling and keep shining. You're a white whole anw, it should be bright. So, SHINE!

Today may not be the day to celebrate your birthday but hopefully tomorrow will be a fun and a better day with everyone wearing dresses.

Oh right, to Azurin, Happy Birthday to you too!

Will you wave back at me too?
I guess I know the answer to it.
(:

I went out with Dee to buy something important for my ilooklikeaguy friend. The whole day was really full of crap. It was fun though. In the Mrt, with weird people. Rushing and shouting as if they never board the train. People smiling as if they know what we're saying. And there was Funan too, the salesperson was abit sort I guess. Got lost cause we went round the Funan building. What were we thinking? Well at least I'm very happy. I guess I was abit cruel. My bet anyway. Tak padan eh Farah, kutuk2 org. Oh well, what can you say?

It was a whole lot better at Esplanade. Met Nunu and Sarah there, and we watched MOCCA. Like wow, huge fans they got. And I had a peace of mind there. Arina, the vocal singer was so bubbly and cute and hyper and sweet and nice. Her songs are able to make one smile like really smile, sway ur body from left to right and from right to left, and its sing along. HEE. Her presence, her autograph, her picture. Oh well, my organizer saved our day actually. We got their autograph. If not, Dee can't have it too. HAHA. It was really a pleasure to meet her. Big smile!

And we headed towards the fullerton starbucks after the show with Amirul and Fareez. I was fooled by them, and so was Dee. Crapping about uhhuhrighttt stuffs, Sarah not convinced with the lightning that caused a hole at the Merlion's head until she called her friends to ask about it, the two laughable and hilarious liars and a lot more. Hah, what could be better than nothing today? Hopefully, I could see more of myself being that way. Happy and always smiling like how I used to be.

And I wonder how long will we be waiting?

Remember Friday the Thirteen? I bet noone does. The day I gave those Famous Amos cookie away. Speechless, shocked, scared, surprised, nervous, breathless. Name it, I have them all. And that was a month ago actually. Big smile on my face uh?

Today woke up damn early. Thanks to my brother for shouting at me for nothing. It is Friday the Thirteen and its hopeless. Hoping for a bad thing to happen but nothing happened. The whole day, sitting in front of the computer watching 90210. It was nice and amazing. At least that made my day quite interesting.

Webcam-ing with the two bitches was quite hilarious. Making stupid, annoying, funny faces. Haha insane monkeys.

The IT Fair was packed with a damn whole lot of people going in and out from there. And what a huge plastic bags they got. The laptops there are not that cheap as compared to the ones in NP. Fujitsu seems to be a better laptop of all somehow. But too bad I won't be buying it for now. Maybe next year?

And no, the day doesn't stop there. My bank account was about to explode. Nas was really promoting me to burn a hole in my pocket. Seriously, I had an issue with her. I'm not going out with you anymore alright? Doesn't mean my pay is next week I have to burn it riggggggghhhhhhhhhhttttttttttt? She's killing me in no time.

Being with you is so disfunctional.
I really shouldn't miss you.
But I can't let you go.

Thanks to all for the advice. Even though I don't know who is Ial? Yeah, I totally appreciate it alot. I should just let go of him. After all he did to me. Whatever it is, I'm still young. And I'll just enjoy and be myself like I used to be.

But still, I have to admit that I really do miss him alot. The smile that I used to wear was never the same.

The saddest thing for me was I trusted you and mistakes are now the innocence you played. Just go save it for the other girls unseen.

And right, my medical check up is still not done yet. Grrr.

So yesterday I met my primary school friends. I was actl late for tutoring. But I totally forgot about it. And I talked with them for awhile.

Rauuf: [Staring and smiling]
Farah: Eh! Korang? [Staring back at Rauuff]
Fairuz: Dah lame tk jumpe. Dari mane?
Farah: Err.. Dari rumah kawan. [Smiling soooo widely]
Imran: Mest dah lupe name.
Farah: Eh tkde la. [And i name all 4 guys except for 1] Alamak, name die ape?..
Fairuz: [smiling] Asyraf..
Farah: [Smiling] Oh, okay la. See you guys soon then.

And again, I was very LATE. How I miss the old times. "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"
Get it now?

I went to Zoo with Wajihah. We took the same bus to and from there. It was raining. HELLO, I'm there to watch the animals. Not an animal. Maybe its because of Dee, she went out with Rain. Cursor. But still camwhoring made the day better. Memory full of Farah's face. I'm smiling widely anyway. Maybe not, there's also alot of my cousins face. The monkeys. And boo to Wawa. She didn't get to see her polar bear. Too bad. And then our feets were hurting for some unknown reasons and our stomachs were yelling for food and we have to say goodbye to the animals. Especially my cousins. Then we decided to went back to Lot 1 and ate KFC. And I left my ticket there! Grr.

I'm losing track of time. I feel so lost. I don't know which is the right path and what is the right thing to do. There's got to be way. Give me your directions and I'll follow. I'm just one of the thousand girls who have the same reaction. Can I just leave? Searching and finding a way out of this mess.

If its a good thing that I'm happy and the way people are treating me is like statue, I would rather walk away. Everyone has feelings and please this is not the way they want to be feel. You have a mouth to talk and say that advices are simply nonsense. From there I shall just keep everything to myself and let everything go with the flow. I mean here I am as friend, you simply switch me off and turn around to find a new one. I tried not to keep everything in the dark. And if you really want to know whats the real truth, just make sure you have the feeling of being remorse before asking. I may be smiling when I'm out there. The real fact is that I've been wanting to tell it to you. To think back I guess I have no rights to tell you. But I'm still a friend.

Confused and annoyed about everything. Truth are all over me. Can anyone just tell me what's next?

Yay I'm back for good but too bad he's away for now. That is saddd. But FOC Camp makes me hyper and Izzat makes me crazy. And that makes me hyper crazy. Hahahaha.

Hawk Horus is still the best! With the group leader, Qaiser the hardgay, Farhan scared of cockroaches and Jia Jia who loves saying toooot, and also the freshies, how I love my group. AWWW. And those 4 days 3 nights wasn't that bad after all. Hardgay! SAY SAY SAY! 1 frog! Jump! BOING! HEEHS.

Surprisingly, you knew the things I did.

Like finally, I'm done with packing camp stuffs. Ok, not really finish yet but I'm just left with a few pieces of clothes which are still inside the washing machine and then into the dryer. It's not gonna take forever. Will be done in half an hour. Then, I'm ready for camp. This is so exciting. 4 days, 24th March to 27th March. And I'll be back soooonnnn!

Good luck for the retake. I might not be able to sms ________ but I'll try (:

It's been 12hrs and I've been so happy and hyper. Obviously, this shows that I have something to tell GFS. I'll keep it a hush. I'll tell you girls tomorrow. Hehe.

NASYITA. 20 March. Not forgetting my idiotic tweenie who loves criticising people the whole of yesterday at Mac and always burning a hole in my pocket. It's her birthaday and so here's a wish for you, Happy 17th Birthday Babe! You're turning a year younger. Look how young you are. HAHA.

For four years, having a friend like you is like hell and heaven. With all the ups and downs, we managed to go through them all well. Thanks for being such a bestie that I never had before. Just so you know, if there's anything you need, I'm always there for you. But you will have to keep smiling and keep shining. You're a white whole anw, it should be bright. So, SHINE!

Today may not be the day to celebrate your birthday but hopefully tomorrow will be a fun and a better day with everyone wearing dresses.

Oh right, to Azurin, Happy Birthday to you too!

Will you wave back at me too?
I guess I know the answer to it.
(:

I went out with Dee to buy something important for my ilooklikeaguy friend. The whole day was really full of crap. It was fun though. In the Mrt, with weird people. Rushing and shouting as if they never board the train. People smiling as if they know what we're saying. And there was Funan too, the salesperson was abit sort I guess. Got lost cause we went round the Funan building. What were we thinking? Well at least I'm very happy. I guess I was abit cruel. My bet anyway. Tak padan eh Farah, kutuk2 org. Oh well, what can you say?

It was a whole lot better at Esplanade. Met Nunu and Sarah there, and we watched MOCCA. Like wow, huge fans they got. And I had a peace of mind there. Arina, the vocal singer was so bubbly and cute and hyper and sweet and nice. Her songs are able to make one smile like really smile, sway ur body from left to right and from right to left, and its sing along. HEE. Her presence, her autograph, her picture. Oh well, my organizer saved our day actually. We got their autograph. If not, Dee can't have it too. HAHA. It was really a pleasure to meet her. Big smile!

And we headed towards the fullerton starbucks after the show with Amirul and Fareez. I was fooled by them, and so was Dee. Crapping about uhhuhrighttt stuffs, Sarah not convinced with the lightning that caused a hole at the Merlion's head until she called her friends to ask about it, the two laughable and hilarious liars and a lot more. Hah, what could be better than nothing today? Hopefully, I could see more of myself being that way. Happy and always smiling like how I used to be.

And I wonder how long will we be waiting?

Remember Friday the Thirteen? I bet noone does. The day I gave those Famous Amos cookie away. Speechless, shocked, scared, surprised, nervous, breathless. Name it, I have them all. And that was a month ago actually. Big smile on my face uh?

Today woke up damn early. Thanks to my brother for shouting at me for nothing. It is Friday the Thirteen and its hopeless. Hoping for a bad thing to happen but nothing happened. The whole day, sitting in front of the computer watching 90210. It was nice and amazing. At least that made my day quite interesting.

Webcam-ing with the two bitches was quite hilarious. Making stupid, annoying, funny faces. Haha insane monkeys.

The IT Fair was packed with a damn whole lot of people going in and out from there. And what a huge plastic bags they got. The laptops there are not that cheap as compared to the ones in NP. Fujitsu seems to be a better laptop of all somehow. But too bad I won't be buying it for now. Maybe next year?

And no, the day doesn't stop there. My bank account was about to explode. Nas was really promoting me to burn a hole in my pocket. Seriously, I had an issue with her. I'm not going out with you anymore alright? Doesn't mean my pay is next week I have to burn it riggggggghhhhhhhhhhttttttttttt? She's killing me in no time.

Being with you is so disfunctional.
I really shouldn't miss you.
But I can't let you go.

Thanks to all for the advice. Even though I don't know who is Ial? Yeah, I totally appreciate it alot. I should just let go of him. After all he did to me. Whatever it is, I'm still young. And I'll just enjoy and be myself like I used to be.

But still, I have to admit that I really do miss him alot. The smile that I used to wear was never the same.

The saddest thing for me was I trusted you and mistakes are now the innocence you played. Just go save it for the other girls unseen.

And right, my medical check up is still not done yet. Grrr.

So yesterday I met my primary school friends. I was actl late for tutoring. But I totally forgot about it. And I talked with them for awhile.

Rauuf: [Staring and smiling]
Farah: Eh! Korang? [Staring back at Rauuff]
Fairuz: Dah lame tk jumpe. Dari mane?
Farah: Err.. Dari rumah kawan. [Smiling soooo widely]
Imran: Mest dah lupe name.
Farah: Eh tkde la. [And i name all 4 guys except for 1] Alamak, name die ape?..
Fairuz: [smiling] Asyraf..
Farah: [Smiling] Oh, okay la. See you guys soon then.

And again, I was very LATE. How I miss the old times. "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"
Get it now?

I went to Zoo with Wajihah. We took the same bus to and from there. It was raining. HELLO, I'm there to watch the animals. Not an animal. Maybe its because of Dee, she went out with Rain. Cursor. But still camwhoring made the day better. Memory full of Farah's face. I'm smiling widely anyway. Maybe not, there's also alot of my cousins face. The monkeys. And boo to Wawa. She didn't get to see her polar bear. Too bad. And then our feets were hurting for some unknown reasons and our stomachs were yelling for food and we have to say goodbye to the animals. Especially my cousins. Then we decided to went back to Lot 1 and ate KFC. And I left my ticket there! Grr.