Guess what? I totally screwed my psychology and sociology paper just now. Never had I been in such a situation when my mind simply switched off every entire information for that particular exam. The moment I flipped it open, I had this vision as if I see lines instead of sentences. You can ask what the hell is wrong with me and I will tell you to mind your own business. I doubt you know where this is coming from? Because I, myself have no idea. My eyes were set staring on the question paper but my mind was elsewhere. I remembered clearly one thing that I thought of during the paper. It was actually a chain of what I conclude human like me to be like. It was funny actually. Whatever it is, screw me, what was I even thinking of.

There goes the truth. I know I am lying to myself. I never want to do this. I am no good at this. I know where what-we-are-coming-to. I refuse to understand it. I am always a coward when it comes to reality. Because the next moment it had me feeling so small. Escaping from getting what I hated to become, somewhat I choose to be ignorant. Eventually it will grow bigger and tougher when it returns. But yet I can never make myself face it; what's happening around feels like a world full of butterflies and flowers. To get the things now and the ones left behind is always what everyone want and dream even though thing does not go our own ways. I will have to take a few steps back. I will be able get this over and done with and I know I will feel way better and fine.

I know I should be sleeping by now, just to ease my mind for my MIC test later. I am being paranoid and my mind can't seem to stop wondering. I need to stop all this soon. Sigh.

Guess what? I totally screwed my psychology and sociology paper just now. Never had I been in such a situation when my mind simply switched off every entire information for that particular exam. The moment I flipped it open, I had this vision as if I see lines instead of sentences. You can ask what the hell is wrong with me and I will tell you to mind your own business. I doubt you know where this is coming from? Because I, myself have no idea. My eyes were set staring on the question paper but my mind was elsewhere. I remembered clearly one thing that I thought of during the paper. It was actually a chain of what I conclude human like me to be like. It was funny actually. Whatever it is, screw me, what was I even thinking of.

There goes the truth. I know I am lying to myself. I never want to do this. I am no good at this. I know where what-we-are-coming-to. I refuse to understand it. I am always a coward when it comes to reality. Because the next moment it had me feeling so small. Escaping from getting what I hated to become, somewhat I choose to be ignorant. Eventually it will grow bigger and tougher when it returns. But yet I can never make myself face it; what's happening around feels like a world full of butterflies and flowers. To get the things now and the ones left behind is always what everyone want and dream even though thing does not go our own ways. I will have to take a few steps back. I will be able get this over and done with and I know I will feel way better and fine.

I know I should be sleeping by now, just to ease my mind for my MIC test later. I am being paranoid and my mind can't seem to stop wondering. I need to stop all this soon. Sigh.